These posts chronicle my thoughts, projects, and experiences through different parts of life.
Personal development, dance, community building, adventures, work, and more.
I aim to lead with Authenticity in everything I do.
It’s not an easy thing to cultivate and I want to document the process for myself – and those that it may help.
Nobody’s going to notice. And those that do will either support you, not care enough about it (as you do), or will be opposed to it. But it’s still just YOU at the end of the day. Nobody’s going to notice or care more about the thing you want to do than YOU do.
I have been trying to find “my thing” for years. My passion. While there have been clues and I’ve recognized it’s one of the things that are important for me, for a long time I have not truly embraced it and gone ALL IN. But as GaryVee shares, it might not actually be as bad, not as scary as you might think to go all in. In fact, you have the capacity to learn that the NEGATIVITY and JUDGEMENT you get for going all in on YOUR THING, and LISTENING TO YOURSELF FIRST … is not so bad. So let’s find out.
There are some things about us that are technically true, but aren’t worth saying. They are the things that give us reason to hold ourselves back and perpetuate a sense of falsehood to our soul. Is it worth repeating what is “fact” at the expense of what is true?
Whether it’s something big or something silly, each time I do something and #EmbraceTheWeird in any way, the gap between “I have this idea” and “f*ck it” gets shorter and the severity of doing that thing gets less intense.
What happens when you share your deep secret? That thing you would be terrified if someone found out? I suppose my heart heard that and said, “Let’s find out!” And here we are.
Spitting fire and flying around, big dragons in our lives can cause even MORE damage and problems than we might anticipate. Are we embracing the courageous lifestyle of a dragon slayer?
It was as if the “simple” act of doing something, creating something, opened up a gateway for everything else to follow.
There’s value to be had everywhere, if we’re willing to look past some of our differences. Dita von Teese holds herself with an unmistakable poise and presence. She’s not afraid to be elegant, powerful, nor is she afraid to forge her own path by being different.
The exercise, 100 Questions by Leonardo Davinci is designed to get you to think about the questions that are most important to you in your life (at this moment). I’ve found that my direction for the year is almost paralleled by the questions and themes from doing this exercise.
And now my heart likes things to be clean, so I will do everything I can to keep cleaning, because it’s an ongoing thing and I’m learning to accept that it’ll be something I do forever.
But once I hit that threshold… That big takeaway that I got from asking that question was completely overshadowed by something else.
Whether or not I behaved that way isn’t even relevant anymore. All I want to focus on is today. What can I do today? What does the heart say today? Where am I going to go from today?
Doing this Kylego exercise every day has been incredibly beneficial. A part of me actually tries to convince myself NOT to do it, because doing it raises my awareness of what I’m actually capable of. And if I don’t do it, then I don’t have to face the music.
I’m most effective in the dark, when the world is asleep. These hours seem to be my golden hours, when I’m most productive, most focused, and less likely to be distracted. Most in tune with myself.
Why not just be in this moment? Why not think for myself, by myself, without even factoring in “others”?
My default should be all-devices-offline. My phone, computer, laptop, music, fan … all of it. None of it should be operating unless I have a specific thing I need to accomplish.
Just like that, a hundred things start popping up that I COULD do, that would be MORE productive or effective. It was hard to stay in my meditation much longer, because this new sensation and all these ideas pulled me to get up and do something.
That “ideal” place I keep imaging and striving for … that can be my reality today. If I just stop looking forward to “tomorrow” and incorporate it today.
Naive and chill for 30 days seems to be working out a lot better than worrying about all this other shit I “should” be doing and giving myself a fucking hard time about it. I’m already more focused, happier, more relaxed, and more productive than I have been in months.
That magic, that “updraft” feeling … that’s the heart talking.
Seeking discipline before action was giving me one more excuse not to take action.
It was getting overwhelming. I was spending all my time “collecting” all of those things and not really doing anything with them! When there’s less clutter in my life, those things that are most important stand out like a lighthouse peeking through the clouds.
Instead of feeling like I have to be ALL IN on ONE specific mindset, can I not pull from both ends and combine them into something that’s uniquely mine?
Through a combination of frustration, discovering a “gap” between who I am and who I could be, and the catalytic combination of a handful of sources, I’ve felt inspired to create the Glimmering Butterfly Project: a personal 30 day quest and challenge for me to step into the guidance of my heart.